2.5 hours until I can leave work

Well, I have been reading a lot of gen x articles today, I don't know I guess trying to logically figure out my issues in a way that justifies my feelings, and I think there was some good stuff I need to read out there which applies. There is also some comfort in the fact that I can understand the frustrations with my Dad baby boomer and my sister Gen Y as similar generations, with Gen X stuck in the middle between both generations as well as the frustration with my career prior to leaving in middle management. I don't know I kind of feel like the fight is fleeting from trying to push everything forward and stable in every situation. Maybe there is peace with living in the moment. Gen X always has back up plans, so I read, I guess it is true, that is why I have taken this state job, because I wanted to make sure I had income if the business fails. My Dad nor my sisters ever have back up plans, so I feel vindicated. It seemed there was a constant across many Gen X's wanting to pursue Entrepreneurial aspirations, I have the same feelings, I have done that sort of with this Franchise, hopefully it is successful but if not, I think I would be okay with it. Maybe I would build a webpage for my wife's clay art and try to sell and market it online. I feel some confirmation that leaving the corporate world behind was the right move, and although I have less than 25% of my original income, I do have more personal time. I guess knowing I am not alone in these feelings sort of releases the trigger of built up anger and discontent.

Every generation has struggles, at some point we have to come to grips with it. I don't know I feel kind of peaceful right now after reading the many Gen X bloggers talking about their frustrations. I have two folders I'm supposed to be working on right now, which would take me about 15 minutes to complete, but I still have 2.5 hours of work left, so I'll get to it when I can maybe after I go back to the harvard business site and read more posts. I know I'm educated enough to be successful in whatever I really want to do or opportunities that present themselves, but maybe I just need to take a few years off from the depression burden of trying so hard. Wow that does not sound like me, but it is nice to say.