Is there anyone else like me?

Just a thought, the odds are that there is someone almost identical in thought process, maybe a different culture, language, ethnicity, but surely there is someone out there that has the same feelings about the situation I have been in. How can I possibly be unique and special with among billions of other human beings. Now I am thinking about the possiblity that someone else in this world might actually read this, and I am thinking about what I could say to have this make sense and form some type of final thought or conculsion that wraps up nicely, maybe a book deal, or magazine article to highlight that my issues are not unique, but then why would it be published..fuck! I have met many people that are happy and most of the time they are very simple human beings, older, no ambition or future foresight, no planning, just now. Is living in the now, do what is in front of you get into a mindless routine happiness? Is freedom boring? Mundane is boring challenging task is a quick fix for the gen x, can I represent the gen x? FUck no, I'm just me, raised in the 80's but in a religion that did not allow us to watch TV or listen to the radio until I started going to highschool in the late 90's. Still, did not have much interest in TV or radio, played a little basketball and went to school had one friend in California while I was being homeschooled and my father was a pastor. If someone read my blogs and knew who I was they would be completely freak out. I have it together, I'm smart, confident, friendly, interactive, got it together, polite, help people, willing to help, stable, good husband, good brother, great son. Can you ever really share your true self with your family, you don't want to worry them, I don't want to worry them. I'm thinking..cool maybe, this is good shit, maybe a publisher will stumble across my blog and want to publish..what the fuck, I am not that important, my thoughts are not that great!!!!! FUck what is wrong with me, when I type fuck I type it fast so it capitalizes U. Haha get the hint. I'm tired. ooh that is so poetic, its not, its just my thoughts as I think them. I used to do something like this when I went to ACC, yeah I went to a community college, but when I apply for jobs I don't put that on my resume, because I went to 2 major universities and I am smart. What, fucking be honest. I titled my blog Gen X Reflections, because I feel I am too young to be reflecting, but I also feel there is a battle in my personality between the success as a young adult through the early 2000 years to the complete depression of 2009, surely that means a change is on the horizon right? I'm luck my parents and family are all well and healthy, but I feel I have missed what every elderly expereienced person says is most important the human connection. I checked out all through highschool, college, and graduate years and now in my personal life. I don't want to mingle, or go to the cube next to mine and spark a conversation. I just want to be me, but me is not happy e.g. the blog.